Stab me in my Chest Don't Stab me in my Back

What I can't stand is people who talk behind your back and they laugh and smile in your face like ya'll cool. I feel like why do you have to stab me in the back? I wantchu to look me in the eye when you stab me? You feel me? Nuccas like that to me in my opinion are BITCH NUCCAS! They are the ones thatchu can't sleep on because they will be your down fall if you are caught slipping. Prime example it was a dude that I work with we were supposed to be friends. We kicked it at the bowlin alley and went skatin and out to eat. We were chillin outside of work etc. Anyway then a couple weeks ago I come back to work to hear from 4 different people that this nucca was talkin bad about me. Well I guess it was out of jealousii because he was talkin about how I flirt with all the girls at the job. All the women that come through the drive thru. He believes that I think that I'm a playa, mack and or pimp. Well I am overlii confident. On a scale of 1-awesome I'm the shyt. Some people may not think so but then again I may have a Tiggah Casanova fan club and don't know about it. The way I see it is if you don't think highlii of yourself why should anybodii else? I was told to love my haters they boost my ego forreal. Anyway I just think its crayzii how someone is supposed to be my manz and he is the number one person talkin shyt about me. (I know you reading this so I'm gonna talk directlii to you)

Forreal what is your problem with me fam? Are you jealous? Are you mad that you can't get close to these girls like I can? Help me out tell me what it is? Do you wanna be me or what? Am I that important to your life thatchu have to talk or worrii about me or who I flirt with or who I go out with? Forreal kill yourself with that highschool bitch shyt. Oh and by the way gimme my dick back when you done with it NO HOMO!! Now when we see eachother I'll speak but I just can't shake your hand. You're a BITCH and you're a RAT. Nuccas told me thatchu were gonna bite me it was just a matter of time. Now I can't fuq witchu no more. It might seem real pettii it though butchu made it this way not me. So stab me in my chest don't stab me in my back. I'd rather look you in the eye when you stab me.

Much Love and Stay Chillz

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Dummii Effect

Yo I'm feeling some kind of way right now. I know that I was in a relationship with this person that I was supposed to be in love with, but I can't help but feel some kind of way. As I said before we were good the first four months you know talkin on the phone all day and night, she came to my job, brought me brownies and stuff like that. After that we started callin eachother less and less. We talked through text messages. Then text messages slowlii stopped. It got to the point where I rarelii saw her. I rarelii talked to her. I started to feel like I was the onlii one in the relationship. Ok I tried to deal with it because she is a single mother, she goes to school and she goes to work. So she's prettii busii. I tried hard I reallii tried not to think about it like this but I reallii felt like she was in another relationship. It crossed my mind but at the sametime I didn't want to think about it. Lets be real here everything was all smooth like grits and then later on down the line I saw lumps in it. What other explanation is there? Come on we talked everyday and everynight and then it suddenlii came to a stop. I have to beg and plead to see her and when I finalii do see her its for like 5-10 minutes. What would you think? I felt like a dummii because my bestfriends told me that the relationship was over before it reallii got started. I'm not gonna front I knew it too I was in denial. I wasn't radii for things to end. I was so bent on makin a happii home with my "dream girl" that I got blinded. I mean we had historii. I was dumb in love with this girl. I was bein hardheaded. Nothin else mattered at the time. Like the old folks say everything is always good in the beginning. Now what's so fuq'd up about the whole situation is regardless of what has happened between us recentlii I still have the same feelins for her that I had when I first met her. My question is am I bein dumb for still lovin this girl? Am I bein dumb for actuallii wantin and considering tryin to work things out if I was given the chance? As I said before I'm feeling some kind of way right now.

Much Love & Stay Chillz

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